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2009-10-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

I miss home and the people very badly =(

2009-10-02T19:12:00.002+08:00

i just want to tell myself that I can do it.just 2 more months to go

2009-08-30T04:45:00.003+08:00

I have finally blogged once again! I think the only pushing factor to make me blog is those readers which kinda make me feel guilty that I should bloggggg! haahs!stop the talking, shall show a couple of favs photos I have =)this is the first sunset that I see in Trondheim. This is because I am hardly out at night..always curdling in my room at night! the nights are cold and I seriously hate being

2009-08-01T15:48:00.002+08:00

my 3rd day in norway =)norway is 6 hrs behind time from singapore's! I really feel its boring as a city.because stuff is so expensive, so you dont really feel like shopping! every mineral water I buy is 6 sing dollars! every bus ride I take is about 6 sing dollars as well!!! =(yesterday was the first time i went to tour around the area! took the bus to the city and there we took saw the festival

2009-07-05T00:05:00.002+08:00

YES MY DEAR LUCIA! i am going to update as I promised!! =)I have not been really happy actually. A friend was really rude on the phone to me over really some stupid thing and yes we are not talking. and being a guy like him, I doubt I will never ever get the chance of hearing him apologise. It is kinda sad isn't it..where relationships with everyone is so vulnerable.Personally, I dont know if i

2009-05-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

hahas okay!I have basically no intention to blog at all but since my favourite reader has requested me to do so after my exams (can't seem to find a valid reason to say no to that "order')..I have decided to blog!been out really late the past few days..went dwayne's house for 1st ever arsenal match! the 3 arsenal fans were really disappointed that they lost to chelsea!life has been much better

2009-01-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

I get extremely upset when the people whom I so dearly love just do not understand me. especially when it comes to my parents, it hurts me to mostI still remember once I scored about 80 over for a maths paper in sec2. It was lower than my usual 90 over and I got scolded for not studying hard when the paper was set purposely at a higher standard. I was in fact one of the top few in class already

2009-01-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

its been so longand its only a day before school officially starts.here I am, feeling really scared and daunted by the upcoming obstacles and hardships.I have a premonition that I may fail again. The failure is nothing new and I always try to believe thats failure isn't the difficult part. Its the aftermath of picking myself up again and facing the reality. Up to now, I have to say I failed in

2008-11-01T10:32:00.002+08:00

3 more wks to exams?I wonder why i am getting so vulnerablet these few days.I used to be able to fan off the hurt and obstacles at least to some extent and minimise the pain.but not anymore I wish the old self back really

2008-09-15T12:08:00.001+08:00

its been months since I last blogged.really wonder who will come here now and be interested in my life.hahahsthings have been changing drastically over the past few months.there were many surprises along the way. They can be joyous but heartbreaking ones too.Somehow I feel it isn't going to work. There is this tiny warning that I am sensing so much recently, telling me this is not going to work

2008-05-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

after several days of thinking why I was feeling so sianzzzI finally realise the reason whycoz I am officially sick! oh great! the 3 or more horrendous wk is coming up! =((ARGHHHH

2008-05-04T10:22:00.003+08:00

ok lar...my life is still full of smiles despite my awesome awful papers.I guess i just cant be depressed for too long until i see my results.only then the reality will hit me with full blast =((

2008-04-27T09:58:00.001+08:00

I feel damn sad everytime i read my email because the names are there to remind mecan i get all of you out of my life for just 2 wkssssssi desperately need it =(

2008-04-26T18:59:00.003+08:00

i feel unimportant.a little like the extra one on earth but someone told me beforeeveryone is big in God's eyesand I hope its true. it must be trueor else why am i living on this earth for?seriously,exams period is like...the period to get really depressed out of nothing

2008-04-19T09:30:00.001+08:00

don't ask me why is this happening to me just one wk before exams start.i think its just signs of depression

2008-04-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

I thought you were the one who have not gotten over it.but up to the very endI realise its just me now...and my prayers are effective for peopleso what about me?

2008-03-16T16:37:00.002+08:00

I have to make this short and sweet althought I have alot alot to say.I have reached a point where I feel even if the plan goes through..will we enjoy urself on that trip? will we pretend the rainbow has come out? will we pretend nothing of this has happened when we see him?I cant

2008-03-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

trying to sneak in abit of time blogging.mid terms is over.currently its the 2nd wk after the mid term break.I have 2 more months to end my first yr of uni officially! YAYllife hasn't been good lately and I find it hard to express my displeasure to anyoneI think I am just worried that my intentions are misinterpreted which may lead to misunderstanding so i rather keep my mouth shut! =\lets hope

2008-02-23T11:57:00.002+08:00

when you said I shouldnt be looking too hard to find my answers in lifeit caught me thinking if I have been neglecting the good around me.life will always be tough no matter where I go.so i should just stay on...I need your help

2008-01-19T15:28:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging for quite sometimecurrently, life is hardbut at least I stll know how to enjoy lifehahas19 Jan.. it will be a day that I will never forgetI am still recovering from shock and a little phobiahopefully, i will be able to overcome itlucia, heard your husband's voice wasn't good on his birthday!=X

2007-12-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

oh well..met my all time fav LU!seriously..u made me feel I am not alone in this world friend! =)pnw was amazingit was better than the first I ever had.somehow it was amazing.looking at the blessed sacramenttears just flow uncontrollablysomething was missing before thatand it is certainly reconcilationalthough I may not be able to pin point any of the God's moment I haveI feel light and

2007-12-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

alright..today is my last paperthe first time i would say to myself, I am ill-preparednot that I am very prepared for my last 4 modules but at least I felt I didnt let myself downso lets see how i do at 9amjust like how a good decision is not based on the outcomeI think the quality of studying is not based on results as wellalright..just trying to deceive myself furtheri am exhausted and I shant

2007-12-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

i wonder if it is too much mno typing of helpsheets getting into me because i am feeling super down now. the upcoming 2 more exams weighs heavily in my mind since i rather like these two mods.I have changed!and i hate the new me.I wanna go back to the old daysand i have lost sight of you again!that explains why whatever I am doing seems so wrongsigh..its hard..sleep sleep sleep! =(

2007-11-30T15:47:00.000+08:00

the year of NINETEEN has come finally!alright who says I am looking forward to it since I am reaching an age with a 2 in it!every yr, it is a different feeling when the day comes.but this year and the next THREE MORE YEARS.. it will be the same..I BET!cries..oh wells, thanks everything to those who rmb =)i love you guys!

2007-11-17T11:26:00.000+08:00

been a long time.I shouldnt have gone for it again because everytime I return home its either with a troubled mind or heavy heart..when in actual fact, it is supposed to do much more. There's a problem. That's because I am not myself I feel. Its difficult but i miss those common people.Met a new friend today. or should i say 2? oh well..some people know me but i dont know them. they are nice.but

2007-10-03T18:53:00.001+08:00

oh please.. i didnt get full marks..and heard that an engaged couple i know of broke up.I feel very sad for them. Hope God can bring both of them through =)

2007-10-01T18:34:00.000+08:00

Did you guys remember that I mentioned abt saying sorry to my biz grp members?Just had our peer analysis back today.Strength VS Areas of improvementI wasn't shocked over what was mentioned for areas of improvement. I know I was putting biz at one of my lowest piority right now BUT it will be changed after mid terms.On the other hand, somethings said wasn't really accurate though. I guess it

2007-09-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

Did I ever mention that I hate this over-piling of assignments?Whats with a stupid lab session when it doesnt help you to answer the assignment questions?whats with a lecturer who can't really explainwhats with a lecturer who can't even pronounce his wordswhats with a tutor as well who can't really understand questionswhats with ME who can't seem to find time for anythingoh dearI shouldnt be

2007-09-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

thought of blogging again before I am off to sleepI feel damn aplogetic to my biz group members.I feel I haven't been giving enough attention to them as much as I ought toHAISSSSplease let me finish sem1 without regretsor just let me get out of uni

2007-09-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

I need a break =(I had a shagged weekend and its a lousy week too!I guess my mood is lousythat sums up the whole weekI am glad lucia still bothers to come and tag on my tagboard.at least she remembers meto be forgotten can be a very sad thing isn't itI hardly have time for myself than for anyonefor this,I am sorryI don't think I can fulfill the job of trying to touch every single one's lifeI feel

2007-09-12T23:07:00.001+08:00

and i realise..if i was given the choice..i will know what I would have picked

2007-09-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

if someone was to ask you what plans do you have for the company..what will you say?I am damn stressed over it..i feel its a mistake..i feel quite lonely all of a sudden

2007-09-02T17:06:00.000+08:00

when i got the answer,I was disappointed.I was full of hope. I thought it will be successful this time round.but unfortunately, things really isn't going the way.and its weird because I thought I wouldn't be affected.I just feel that I have found a company with no prospects and the boss has entrusted me with the responsibility to bring the company to greater heights when it has no value in the

2007-08-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

I do feel like a meanie to some people these few days..darni need helpthis uni thingie didnt start on a right noteI used to be so independentbut i feel i no longer have the strength to carry onafterall, i am a human!hars..thats it..i am just a human..yay! i am going mad thats all..and i am complaining and procrastinating too much.I am supposed to be balloting for my tutorials.but its going to be

2007-08-16T09:45:00.000+08:00

So here I am at home, slacking my 2nd free day away!hahs!life in school hasnt been any fantastic. In fact, I never felt so worst before in my life.but at least there are still a number of jokers who will spice my life up abit.yes..so Issac took the chance to leave a reminder which says "Worship Issac the Great" on my phone on mon when I wasnt around.The alarm was set at 4.30pm which he knew I

2007-08-05T16:39:00.001+08:00

I feel that i should at least do some justice to my blog.I have not been typing in here for ages.There's nothing much to say currently because I feel it is in total mess.I feel that i am getting back to who I was back 3 years ago.Sigh..people are just getting in and out of my life. Thats what happening right now.As usual, miscommunications leads to problems. I feel I am going to dread everything

2007-07-29T17:58:00.000+08:00

finally back!=)its great to be back home..and i am finally stuck at home only when i am so sick..that's saddening..its nice to know my family cares =D

2007-07-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

so i am off tmr morn to macau and subsequently hongkonglets hope i will enjoy myself=)

2007-07-09T09:18:00.000+08:00

Anger or SadnessI feel that I am more of the formal than the latter.i always thought the reason was very simple but it turned out something so unexpected which caused me to be living in bewilderment for the past 3days. Up till now, I just cant shake off this uncomfortable feeling after it has come to light.Was it the inferior part of me which is contributing to this factor?

2007-06-29T10:13:00.000+08:00

I just got sentimental suddenly while I was halfway typing my letters at work.People to People relationship. They are vulnerable yet they can touch you deep in your heart. Within these 7 months, I have seen the corporate world, made friends along the way.Giving birthday presents to friends, making farewell gifts, or simply just doing something to thank them for who they are in the past few

2007-06-27T10:32:00.000+08:00

ExtroversionYou scored somewhere in the middle between introversion and extroversion, which means that you draw characteristics from both ends of the spectrum. Sometimes, you need time to yourself, preferring to think things through on your own. Other times, you enjoy interacting with others. Overall, you are likely a fairly outgoing person who occasionally opts for solitude. You likely need a

2007-06-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

quite a number of my friends are ending their working stint this week!I am super envious.As much as i want to relax and let the time just pass, i know i cant stop work just yet! >.

2007-06-25T09:22:00.000+08:00
I am in a super troubled mode currently. Unless 7th july passes, I believe I will remain in frown for the next two weeks! =( HAIZanyway, it has been a fulfilling past week for me.Meeting up with sec friends whom I have not seen for super long.I do have to admit most of the meet-ups we had in the past, I didnt manage to attend them.so yea.most of the past photos do not have me in them! =S but it

2007-06-20T10:14:00.000+08:00
alright..i am BACK.lets see.many things happened these 4 months though.trying to catch up with friendstrying to make time for everyone when i am working 24/7being frustrated when i was about to change my jobbeing frustrated when i was so fickle minded over my university applicationsbeing so pissed off over this woman who interviewed merealising how nice profs in smu can berealising how mean

2007-02-04T19:26:00.000+08:00
I was quite happy when my mom said i am allowed to go overseas with my friends.but i realise..very few of my friends are able to do so..haizmy boring life continues

2007-01-13T09:31:00.000+08:00
mon is coming..I hope I dont get it..so i wont have the consequences to deal withits difficult to partdifficult to adaptI am satisfied nowbut it seems there is a high chances of me leaving..I am so looking forward to having breakfast

2007-01-01T15:06:00.000+08:00
FINALLY2007 is hereI've finished watching the frog showmy parents have stopped nagging at me for onceI've stopped thinking about alot of things (but in the 1st place, I dont think alot..so now, my brain is dead basically)oh great.I hate the look of my blog but just not so long ago, I have made up my mind to abandon my blog once and for all.Afterall, very few friends know about it, my gbk is not

2006-12-16T21:13:00.000+08:00
I have been rather sad lately.difficult to explainand I am finally sickoh this is greatthe more some of the friends treat me betterthe more i cant control some of the thingshaiz.........drunk because of my sorrows

2006-12-04T14:53:00.000+08:00
did i mention to anyone that i love going to the dentist?but it will be my last visit there since i am turning 19 next year.sob sobi love the placealthough there are different dentists attending to me everytime i go thereall of them know how to pronounce my name perfectlythat's so amazingi wonder if their grasp of the english language affects thisbecause only those with superb gp results plus 4

2006-11-30T10:57:00.000+08:00
its simply irritating.i have changed my internet plan.a one with double the speeda one which is wireless..BUTits slower than beforeit better gets back to its usual performance before i lodge a complaint soonand whoever is tapping my wireless will get it big time from metaken a day off.dont feel excited for anything and everythingyear end party is in 4wks time.i dont feel 07 is comingchristmas is

2006-11-26T15:56:00.000+08:00
finally. a long break away from the books. actually, i sort of miss it because i dont get as tired during school days as i am now.life continues and its not very different from my last 18 years in spore after As..that sounds sadthanks to all who have wished me.surprisingly, there were like double the number who remembered this year and i wonder why. sad to say, i wasnt in the mood for anything

2006-11-17T17:12:00.000+08:00
i am really surprised to see quite a handful of thoughtful friends who wished me luck for fm!RAH!=( one more paper..my worst paper has to be done on my last day of exams..haiztold my mom quite abit of what i thinkerm..maybe not abit..but ALOTits quite good to let your parents know how you feel towards this education system and how you will look at your grades so they wont give unnecessary

2006-11-11T09:19:00.000+08:00
whenever i read it, i just feel utterly disappointed.the journey was arduous.it took me long enough to return back to the path where i hope you will be there to give me light to my ever grey sky.i thought i have reachedand was so elated to see you.but your hands seem unreachableyour blessings for me seem unable to settle on mei feel very downbut i will never stop tryingi will do it till i get

2006-11-01T14:01:00.000+08:00
GP is tmr!it has never been a good subject for me no matter how many people on earth claim that i am so ang moh..too badand its weird.i am jealous because of thatand i am usually the kind who dont really get jealous easilyargh!i hate to share what i have believed in right from the start when i was borneh...maybe not from the start..but defnitely 1 or 2 months after my birth.i cant really remember

2006-10-30T16:36:00.000+08:00
have anyone realised my posts are getting shorter and shorter.I guess not.No one notices anywaywas typing it.supposed to be a well-wishingbut it doesnt even sound happy at allmaybe its because of the song15 years ago.the promise was made but it was never fulfilled.i treated it seriously but was it to you?i really want to see you again to askbut will you come and find me?or do i have to leave

2006-10-24T17:07:00.000+08:00
been thinking and i've been having talks with alot of people recently..i have almost made up my mind to migrate to some countrysingapore is good..but well, i think its not the life that i want.when i will migrate or leave spore, isnt certain but it will be..time will tell =)a few people have made a difference in my life.whether i did have an influence on people, i am not sure.however, i know all

2006-10-21T10:30:00.000+08:00
i have now reached the age where i have to think about alot of things and face with alot of unexpected problems.its difficult to think about the future.离开以后并没有更自由

2006-10-18T16:34:00.000+08:00
i am waiting in anticipation for next year to comethat's because i will away from everyone for at least one month!yipee..no one can find me =D

2006-09-29T17:03:00.000+08:00
i have more than 5 people telling me this week they actually do read my blog..and i seldom get so many people telling me about my blog within a short period of time.this shows what? i got no idea.hahas.but maybe, despite me changing my blog address without telling more than 3 people, they can still find it huh..not bad -.-never been so happy for a long time and this time, i am truely glad.the

2006-09-24T11:56:00.000+08:00
forget it..dont make me get frustrated over this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i beg people to leave me alone =((oh..i still enjoy watching leon acts!=)) hahas

2006-09-23T15:08:00.000+08:00
if you think those previous entries are all about you..you dead wrong.my life doesnt revolve about you and only youI am very sorry but i have chosen not to read it this time roundI am not certain if you even know the existence of my site.even if its a yes, its my way of communicating to you and i prefer it this way because its a one way thing.I am not sure if it will help our already strained

2006-09-20T19:44:00.000+08:00
sometimes i do think about itnot say i do not care, but i prefer to set my piorities rightreluctant,hesitate,avoidis it possible to return back to the starting pointdo i, in the 1st place, hope to return back there?i dont think i do.the only word i can say now issorrythough this word can be misused quite a few timesbut this is really coming deep down from my hearti cant do much..or should i say,

2006-09-06T16:14:00.000+08:00
left with 5days..no matter what, i have faith in youand i know you will bring me through the difficult odds i am facingand i know you will give me a better life, a better soul, a better spiritual lifeI am inspired to go to the place where you want me toif I have the chance, i will see you there! =)

2006-08-31T12:49:00.000+08:00
i have wanting to blog for a long long time.i cant exactly remember what i wanted to blog about really.but many things happened but i am glad i've managed to pull through everything.at least i think i didbascially, just want to thank my classsuddenly i feel that i need a class album. to put all the notes and pictures they left for me.but will i ever have the time to do that?haiz..hopefully..after

2006-08-11T17:46:00.000+08:00
i am greatly amazed by my ability to prevent a temper outburst in schooland i seem to do it so dramatically at homeread mr neo's blog..and it seems so truei have been so overwhelmed by different emotions these 1+ month.overwhelmed by frustrationsoverwhelmed by angeroverwhelmed by sadnessoverwhelmed by just being meoverwhelmed with irritantsi really cant fathom why i could just for no reason flare

2006-07-23T21:03:00.000+08:00
actually i really want to share my happy moments that i have with my family yesterday with someonebut yes..i cant find anyone else to share with..sigh..see how sad my life is..i have friends but yet it seems as though i dont have one.how pathetic.that's why i always feel i am alive for only one reason--for my family, for my churchforgot those negative feelings!and the moment i typed that previous

2006-07-21T23:22:00.000+08:00
not sure why.but how come i see more people asking me to go for grad when they are not from my own class..so i am back to listening all my mp3sold and new songs..not much new thoughjust felt that these lyrics can really describe how i feel yesterday as well as today..which allowed me to stay happy in front of peopleThere's a place in your heartAnd I know that it is loveAnd this place could be

2006-07-20T18:02:00.000+08:00
new songs make me happy! =) despite them being not so happy songs =Xi feel so much better today.its like 50% of me is healed.hopefully, it will not be a reversible reaction where i go back to me not-so-gd days in spilt seconds.so basically, i have at least 1 person who will ask me if i am going for grad EVERYDAY.but i feel..whether if i go or not, what difference will it make?unless there's

2006-07-19T17:56:00.000+08:00
dont ask me what happened.I feel terrible actually.i have spent hours on the computer already..doing nothing but just listening to songs and singing along with them.that's the best way to relieve whatever unhappiness i have within meit has been very difficult to have someone whom i can lean to when i am tired and when i need support.i really feel like crying

2006-07-03T13:09:00.000+08:00
the world cup craze has been affecting me.I have started to familarise myself with all the players' names, recalling them from the last world cup.hahas.I feel so disappointed that I couldnt have the chance to watch Brazil play before they got eliminated by France.so my bet for the finals will be germany against france!just got to hear my phy teacher simon tan commented that our class phy results

2006-06-23T13:50:00.004+08:00
OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!!i actually addicted to the green forest,my home show!its my first time addicted to such shows..usually, not many shows will catch my attention.and i am feeling very guilty having to watch so many eps of it already.i should have used the time wisely on my studies instead.but somehow, i cant control.2 more eps for me!oh yes, im not exactly fascinated about the

2006-06-12T15:54:00.000+08:00
shortest entry in my lifei have lost interest in everything that i used to be crazy about -.- that's terrible.which means, i no longer have anything to look forward in lifesave me pleaseYou're the meaning in my lifeYou're the inspirationYou bring feeling to my lifeYou're the inspiration-only one person has the ability to do that-

2006-06-09T22:09:00.000+08:00
As i grow older, meaningful forward messages are hard to come by. making me read those words arent easy but somehow miracles happen.I am glad i managed to read this email which was sent to me from a friend i have known for 9 yearsNobody is perfect until you fall in love with themLove starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.What do

2006-06-03T22:10:00.000+08:00
Second Place of Victoryits breathtaking to think of you and to learn that sometimes the only way out is through its mindnumbing to thinkof yesterday i'll run to you now if i could but things have changed[chorus](i heard you say) its enlightening to think of the breezeand to believe in things that we can't see(so here we go) lets show them how to liveaccept the pain always forgivewatch the sun go

2006-06-02T18:53:00.001+08:00
on the way to gp today, i took a u turn towards the co room hoping i was able to see familiar faces of my section mates.they were there,changing those cello soft casings to those hard ones, preparing for the japan trip that is coming next week.for a moment, i felt i have become an outsider looking back has never been good.it tastes so bitteri was stuck on whether i should be blogging about my

2006-05-28T19:02:00.000+08:00
my body system in me has officially broken downi am very tiredvery wearythe responsibilities that i have to carry is far too much for me to bearthe songs that i used to like..no longer can comfort me anymoremelancholywonder when will i ever have a chance to listen or maybe watch a movie or a concert which i can truely enjoy.a comedy movie hopefully..i have not laughed heartedly for a long long

2006-05-22T14:22:00.000+08:00
i gave up! i'll put up those blog address soon.its so tedious trying to find out your old friends' blogs but i guess that's how we continue to keep in touch.i have forsaken my blog for so long and that explains that i have not been contacting some friends for a decade.i am exaggerating of course.last week of term2 before the june holidays arrives.its really time to settle down.hopefully, i will

2006-05-20T21:42:00.000+08:00
200506sigh..its so painful..scalded my hand 2 days ago while ironing.1 long scar..no one actually noticed it except for michelle!=) thanks alot.it was my 1st time ironing my own clothes.i cant really say i feel sense of achievement but at least i finally learn a little bit of independence i hope during these few weeks.the worst thing is, i had to forget my mom's birthday which was yesterday..i

2006-05-15T17:27:00.000+08:00
150506my mom is currently in the operation theatre.somehow i feel traumatise by it.maybe its because my mommy has always been the pillar of support throughout my 18 years here on earth.that's why upon hearing the news, my mood was completely on the down side.Without her, i am not sure if i can survive till this day. i really pray she will be alright.maybe this hasnt been a very good day. co ended

2006-04-25T17:32:00.000+08:00
250406the week started off really badly and it depends who i am with. i may seem ok to some but to others no. was reading some of the blogs and i really envy those who can express their thoughts and feelings really well. sad to say, i still cant get the hand of writing it good =( that explains why my gp grade still isnt up to expectations. such a pity for those who know me well enough.why cant it

2006-04-23T17:44:00.000+08:00
230406a week has passed.it seems to be gone real fast but on the other hand, a little slow as well, as if i want this week to pass quickly.something which i will seldom hope for.but well, its finally the end of the week.it was a little dull i guess or maybe it was just because i am not in the mood to do anything.no motivation, no laughter, no dreams, no ideals.i just want to lie on my bed and

2006-03-24T11:35:00.000+08:00
240306i am rewriting my entry again and again because i am just not satisfied my use of language and the content of it. i was thinking about the freedom i have enjoyed throughout my years in this family. my parents are pretty impartial and they dont exactly show baisness towards any of the children, which is pretty good for us. I just feel really blessed to have parents of such capability. not