OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!!
i actually addicted to the green forest,my home show!
its my first time addicted to such shows..usually, not many shows will catch my attention.and i am feeling very guilty having to watch so many eps of it already.i should have used the time wisely on my studies instead.but somehow, i cant control.2 more eps for me!

oh yes, im not exactly fascinated about the casts.usually that's what people do right..being gaga over cute actors and pretty actresses.what caught my attention was william's ability to speak english so well in the show.that was the main factor..i cant really explain it myself but its just so amazing. little did i know he is actually a Singaporean!-.-ll and there is this particular guy who played the cello too..and there was a scene where the whole room is filled with cellos!oh mans..im gaga over that..hahas

Allen who is the driver for William in the show, though not the lead actor is so hilarious..he is the one who spices up everything!HAHA..oh my dear..

oh well, the storyline is just so similiar to what i have encountered in my life.every little thing seems to be dictating about what i know.haiz.i feel really sad while watching the show.unhappy memories.i hate it..but because the storyline was so close to what i encounter, i cant help it..it was a happy ending in the end for them..but will it be in my life..

shortest entry in my life

i have lost interest in everything that i used to be crazy about -.-
that's terrible.which means, i no longer have anything to look forward in life

save me please

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration

-only one person has the ability to do that-

As i grow older, meaningful forward messages are hard to come by. making me read those words arent easy but somehow miracles happen.I am glad i managed to read this email which was sent to me from a friend i have known for 9 years

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying
is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....
you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown,
you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life,
but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
Love is just a word until its proven to u.

To realize The value of a sister
Ask someone Who doesn't have one
To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple.
To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate.
To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.
To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby.
To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident...
To realize The value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.
To realize the value of a friend: Lose one.

Second Place of Victory
its breathtaking to think of you and to learn that sometimes the only way out is through its mindnumbing to think
of yesterday i'll run to you now if i could but things have changed

[chorus]
(i heard you say) its enlightening to think of the breeze
and to believe in things that we can't see
(so here we go) lets show them how to live
accept the pain always forgive
watch the sun go down
learn the sound of following
all that is complete

its breathtaking to think of you
and to learn with our fate that the sky isn't as blue
its mindnumbing
to think of yesterday we'll look toward the stars
and dream that we're airplanes


it was a Christian song which i came across today on the internet.just feel the lyrics is just so beautiful.I guess its because i can relate so well with the words.
beautiful song amazing lyrics
if anyone wants to have a listen to this song, feel free to ask me =)

on the way to gp today, i took a u turn towards the co room hoping i was able to see familiar faces of my section mates.they were there,changing those cello soft casings to those hard ones, preparing for the japan trip that is coming next week.for a moment, i felt i have become an outsider looking back has never been good.it tastes so bitter

i was stuck on whether i should be blogging about my last co concert, Aurora 7. I am glad the audience did enjoy themselves. tickets sales was overwhelming.the tickets were sold out long before the actual day came. may11.it came and went.To me, it was very difficult to define what exactly i was feeling.
throughout my 1 and the half years in njco

I never knew my seniors were so helpful and friendly.they welcomed me with open arms the 1st day i stepped in njco.
I never knew i was the 1st ever cello junior to join the section
I never knew the initial 5 J1s'05 cellists will in turn end up with only 2 after 1st 3months.
I never knew there were only 2 sn people in njco after 1st 3months
I never knew i could master the syf song well enough and good enough before the competition arrived
I never knew njco could get a GOLD and get selected to perform during the syf opening
I never knew the camaraderie the cello bass section shared could be so strong
I never knew I could survive mr lee's teachings.
I never knew I could make good friends outside my section
I never knew so many juniors will join the cello section despite being inexperienced
I never knew so many were interested in learning cello
I never knew I have a cellist in my senior class and I have a cellist currently in my junior class. this is what i call fate
I never knew I would even harbour the thought of quitting and leaving co for good before 06 came
I never knew I would return when I was so adamant about quitting
no one influenced my decision.I made all the choices myself
I never knew mr lee will stop teaching me ever again after syf
I never knew i could enjoy myself so much over that few weeks before may11
I never knew our section is so bonded and so gossipy
I never knew our cello section will have a guy in it
I never knew so many friends who are so dear to me will attend my last concert
I never knew my brother would come to watch his first and last co performance
I never knew i could write such touching letter to yulei who cried after reading that 1pg long of letter
i doubt i can never write another heart-wrenching sort of letter to anyone ever again
I never knew i will miss njco cello bass so much more than sn cello bass

the camaraderie i shared with
yvonne,mingjing,jane,yuxian,lishan,jason
yulei, zenwea,yewee,yirong
meichen,leona, yuting,xiaomin, liuxuan
will be kept close to my heart

i never knew so much so much.but all are lost and never will they return again.

its a pity i feel njco is not bonded as a whole.but i am lucky to be in the best section there

till i blog more on it =)