i have wanting to blog for a long long time.

i cant exactly remember what i wanted to blog about really.

but many things happened but i am glad i've managed to pull through everything.at least i think i did

bascially, just want to thank my class

suddenly i feel that i need a class album. to put all the notes and pictures they left for me.but will i ever have the time to do that?haiz..hopefully..after As

that also explains why i have bringing camera quite frequently..hopefully i am able to take photos with every single one of them before graduating

i am greatly amazed by my ability to prevent a temper outburst in school
and i seem to do it so dramatically at home

read mr neo's blog..and it seems so true
i have been so overwhelmed by different emotions these 1+ month.
overwhelmed by frustrations
overwhelmed by anger
overwhelmed by sadness
overwhelmed by just being me
overwhelmed with irritants

i really cant fathom why i could just for no reason flare up.maybe i do know deep down in me but just that i have been keeping inside me for so long that i no longer acknowledge the existence.self denial...was staring into space during my bus ride in the morn till i slowly fell asleep.i seem to realise i dont exactly remember any happy moments in my life.everything seems to be blurred in my memory and they are deemed to be insignificant now.why is this so?maybe my life is just sad and maybe i would leave this world one day without any recalls of the happy moments. I hate being so depress.I no longer feel happy in front of my friends who were once so dear to me. I no longer want to talk to them anymore. I no longer yearn to see their presence in school. I no longer want to interact with anyone.

i no longer want to do anything...will i survive at the end?
i believe so..
though the process is arduous..i always believe that i can do it at the end of the day
i just want all of you to leave me alone..why cant you just grant a small wish of mine?
i feel so angry..
why cant i be invisible in people's eyes?