Did I ever mention that I hate this over-piling of assignments?
Whats with a stupid lab session when it doesnt help you to answer the assignment questions?
whats with a lecturer who can't really explain
whats with a lecturer who can't even pronounce his words
whats with a tutor as well who can't really understand questions
whats with ME who can't seem to find time for anything

oh dear
I shouldnt be complaining
and whats with my students who seem to be pressurising me even more =(
I realise I just love to hide away when the problems come

thought of blogging again before I am off to sleep

I feel damn aplogetic to my biz group members.
I feel I haven't been giving enough attention to them as much as I ought to
HAISSSS
please let me finish sem1 without regrets

or just let me get out of uni

I need a break =(
I had a shagged weekend and its a lousy week too!
I guess my mood is lousy
that sums up the whole week

I am glad lucia still bothers to come and tag on my tagboard.
at least she remembers me
to be forgotten can be a very sad thing isn't it

I hardly have time for myself than for anyone
for this,
I am sorry
I don't think I can fulfill the job of trying to touch every single one's life
I feel drained myself currently
and very helpless

those assignments, tutorials and projects are so overwhelming
at the end of the day,
if my cap isn't ideal
I seriously dont know who to face

Images of friends who will listen crossed my mind during lab lesson today
oh well, lab lessons always seem to be a stonying session for me.
Bascially because the experiments aren't that fascinating
that explains why I drifted away today AGAIN
but I was pondering again there's no use complaining to people
life still goes on isn't it

I will never be able to perform as well as I can one year ago
I dont know how I managed to do it
definitely with God's grace
definitely
hais.
I am getting very abstract here
when I talk to people
I don't really show the down side of me
there's no point
I hope someone will just understand without me having to say a word
oh yea..and I know who that someone is
a pity, I can't communicate to you face to face
I am just not worthy enough

its time to buzz off
recess week equals mugging week and further stressing myself week
but rejoice because I am ending my hectic week tomorrow with 6 hours straight of lessons

and i realise..if i was given the choice..i will know what I would have picked

if someone was to ask you what plans do you have for the company..what will you say?

I am damn stressed over it..i feel its a mistake..
i feel quite lonely all of a sudden

when i got the answer,I was disappointed.I was full of hope. I thought it will be successful this time round.
but unfortunately, things really isn't going the way.
and its weird because I thought I wouldn't be affected.

I just feel that I have found a company with no prospects and the boss has entrusted me with the responsibility to bring the company to greater heights when it has no value in the stock market.I feel very afraid because I have no experience in bringing a degraded company to flourish and blossom at the end of 1 year.I am only given 1 year to perform. If I can't succeed, will I be deemed as a useless chap?

Lord didnt leave me alone. He provided me a partner to work with, he provided me the revenues, material resources, a definite approval if I need to take loan to build the company..almost everything.But he couldnt provide me the human resources.Maybe this is where I will be put to the test. But I am not ready to even enter the examination hall. Why am I put down in this way when I am preparing for my 1st ever exam?

He has given me the courage and the strength to take up the challenge. I would never expect myself to take it up. I wouldn't want to ponder over if I have made a mistake or not. Mistakes make one grow and I truely believe its time to embrace all the good and bad in this world.

If its meant to be this way, may it be then.
I know I aren't alone but its just not comforting enough to know this.