I miss home and the people very badly =(

i just want to tell myself that I can do it.


just 2 more months to go

I have finally blogged once again! I think the only pushing factor to make me blog is those readers which kinda make me feel guilty that I should bloggggg! haahs!
stop the talking, shall show a couple of favs photos I have =)



this is the first sunset that I see in Trondheim. This is because I am hardly out at night..always curdling in my room at night! the nights are cold and I seriously hate being in the coldddd where I need to wear 2jackets with 2 layers of clothes! this was what I wore when it was raining the whole day once! But i will schedule to watch sunset properly somewhere instead of outside the kitchen window!hahhas

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did I mention before that the flowers in europe are really beautiful?? anyway, took this flower at monk's island! I was really lucky to catch 2 bees in action when I took the photo! was practically holding my breathe as I took the picture because I was so afraid that the 2 bees will fly and it might destroy a potentially good picture! this yellow flower always reminds me the times when I walked through a green grass patch and suddenly a lonely yellow flower will be seen..I guess I was emoing that time when I saw it!




this picture was hilarous! one of the few photos we took! the effects was great because of the presence of a tweak of sunlight as well as the dark clouds looming! it was taking at bymarka! the hiking trip which I missed during school's orientation! but luck was at my side. the day I missed it, it rained heavily so the students didnt get the chance to climb high so this time, the 5 of us went on!the scenery was gd but drama happened to me as usual!

I was stuck in a mud and half of my lower leg was totally submerged in water! the 4 of them had to pull me out! I was worried my HITEC sch is going to be buried in mud!hahas..and my hi tec shoe became the joke of the day as we trekked somehow!



the first fried rice which I cooked for myself today!! I have not been eating very well I must say!hhahas..sometimes i snack on biscuits alot alot! and I am so lazy to cook! but oh well, the fried rice was nice and I am going to cook it tmr again!!HAHHAS..I am lacking of ideas to cook simple yet nutritious dishes already.

alright I need to blog abt my trip to london which was almost a month ago! soon!

my 3rd day in norway =)

norway is 6 hrs behind time from singapore's! I really feel its boring as a city.because stuff is so expensive, so you dont really feel like shopping! every mineral water I buy is 6 sing dollars! every bus ride I take is about 6 sing dollars as well!!! =(

yesterday was the first time i went to tour around the area! took the bus to the city and there we took saw the festival thing where they allowed us to taste alot of different type of cheese! nachos was nice though its salty! we had trouble finding a place to have lunch because every meal was at least 10 sing dollars! we sound really pathetic yes we are!ahhahs

have not uploaded any photos yet because i feel really lazy!HAHHAS =X but yea I will do so soon guys! have been missing every single one of you =)

YES MY DEAR LUCIA! i am going to update as I promised!! =)

I have not been really happy actually. A friend was really rude on the phone to me over really some stupid thing and yes we are not talking. and being a guy like him, I doubt I will never ever get the chance of hearing him apologise. It is kinda sad isn't it..where relationships with everyone is so vulnerable.

Personally, I dont know if i am suffering before departure depression. I dont want to leave. I feel sianz of everything. Even meeting with friends sometimes is becoming a difficult task for me because I don't feel like going out. Headache is becoming more frequent and I can't believe that I have made the decision to leave the rally team. I dont regret though because I think I am not ready. Maybe part of me feel I dont want this to replace the first rally that I had.

Somehow I wish for something different now.I know ..I just need to be happier and be more satisfied

hahas okay!
I have basically no intention to blog at all but since my favourite reader has requested me to do so after my exams (can't seem to find a valid reason to say no to that "order')..I have decided to blog!

been out really late the past few days..went dwayne's house for 1st ever arsenal match! the 3 arsenal fans were really disappointed that they lost to chelsea!

life has been much better since you are gone.I wish you can just stop harassing me.Its really starting to get on my nerves!I know you mean well but sometimes, I wish you can just broaden your horizon and view, and stop putting me as your life goal or something like that. I sound harsh and I don't deny it because I think by doing it soft on you has direct impact on me. I think I have tried it and I am not willing to try it again.

I know you are reading and I have to say I am not afraid of it being read.Because sometimes I wish everything that is within me can be implied without being said

my life has moved on ever since and I really wish yours will to.

I get extremely upset when the people whom I so dearly love just do not understand me. especially when it comes to my parents, it hurts me to most

I still remember once I scored about 80 over for a maths paper in sec2. It was lower than my usual 90 over and I got scolded for not studying hard when the paper was set purposely at a higher standard. I was in fact one of the top few in class already but yet my mom didnt believe me.

Another time when I was in primary school, I got canned by my mom for staying at my friend's house for slightly more than an hr to play. She wanted me home straight from school.

As I grow older, the reminder of working hard does surface at times by parents. Though it can just be a reminder, it can seem as an insult to me. Even friends know that I work hard. If my own parents can't see it, do they even understand my character at all?

I am just 2 days away before reaching 1 drving probation year. all i ask is just to allow me to drive alone to church from home. it was a definite no. what made me upset was the fact my dad does not understand that i would never want to do something which i am not confident at. If I wasnt confident, I wouldnt want to take the car at all.

I really often wonder how much my parents know me.
and this is defnitely not helping my current down period.